[The muscles under Dimitri's hand are rock hard with tension, eyes stinging with tears he can't quite manage to force back. How could he possibly know that? Even if that's true, what does it even matter anymore? It's all over. Everyone and everything is gone. He's failed. Failed Flayn, Indech, Macuil, Rhea, Fodlan, the island, Byleth, Rosie, Felix, Dimitri--everyone, even the Augur. His best hadn't been good enough. Nobody's had.
And now..... this. Again. Devastation of a scale that only a miracle could heal--a miracle that's never going to come. More than anything right now, he desperately wants to be in Sothis' arms again. Mother always knew how to fix problems as they arose, no matter how severe they were. She always knew what to do in a crisis. Even after all this time, studying and fighting and working..... had he ever really learned anything from her at all?
.....It's such a large, strong hand. Nothing like one too weak even to cling to him, or soft and delicate from centuries of sleep, or shedding putrid skin to reveal stark flashes of bone beneath. Even this is useless, isn't it? Pathetic. Just..... give him a few minutes to fight to steady his breath and calm himself, Dimitri. He's..... doing his best. Even if his best isn't anywhere close to what it usually is.]
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And now..... this. Again. Devastation of a scale that only a miracle could heal--a miracle that's never going to come. More than anything right now, he desperately wants to be in Sothis' arms again. Mother always knew how to fix problems as they arose, no matter how severe they were. She always knew what to do in a crisis. Even after all this time, studying and fighting and working..... had he ever really learned anything from her at all?
.....It's such a large, strong hand. Nothing like one too weak even to cling to him, or soft and delicate from centuries of sleep, or shedding putrid skin to reveal stark flashes of bone beneath. Even this is useless, isn't it? Pathetic. Just..... give him a few minutes to fight to steady his breath and calm himself, Dimitri. He's..... doing his best. Even if his best isn't anywhere close to what it usually is.]
I-I'm sorry.