[ Rose is aware that something's building, that she's made a misstep. But did she really? She had to have known what she was asking, that she was putting Mithrun in a position to relive the most dehumanizing thing he'd ever experienced--maybe that anyone has ever experienced. If she had thought about him, about the fact that he had no desire to avoid his own suffering, she would have realized that he lacked the capacity to protect himself by refusing her question. She could claim that it was a mistake, or even that it was an experiment to see what he'd do, but it's not true.
The truth is that she wanted to know, and she doesn't regret knowing. Because this, the words Mithrun is saying to her, is the hottest fucking thing Rose has ever heard. Her breath is heavy as she reads and re-reads it, knowing in the back of her mind that she needs to address the problem she's created.
"Fuck," she says to herself, squeezing her thighs together. The fact that Mithrun is sitting somewhere, blank-faced and automaton-like, waiting for some stimulus, for Rose to stick her fingers back into his mind and--
Okay, that's enough. Rose takes a deep breath. ]
Thank you, Mithrun. I think that's enough. I'm going to send a message to Angeal now, because you're dissociating. Keep an eye out for him to contact you.
I'm sorry for not thinking things through before asking the question.
[ It's a lie, sure, but the truth wouldn't make anything better. ]
*****
[ Rose sends a message to Angeal: ]
Hey Angeal, please check on Mithrun. I had questions about demons and didn't really think through how they might impact him. I think he's probably checked out right now, but I told him I'd be contacting you. Sorry about that.
CW: psychological sadism
The truth is that she wanted to know, and she doesn't regret knowing. Because this, the words Mithrun is saying to her, is the hottest fucking thing Rose has ever heard. Her breath is heavy as she reads and re-reads it, knowing in the back of her mind that she needs to address the problem she's created.
"Fuck," she says to herself, squeezing her thighs together. The fact that Mithrun is sitting somewhere, blank-faced and automaton-like, waiting for some stimulus, for Rose to stick her fingers back into his mind and--
Okay, that's enough. Rose takes a deep breath. ]
Thank you, Mithrun. I think that's enough. I'm going to send a message to Angeal now, because you're dissociating. Keep an eye out for him to contact you.
I'm sorry for not thinking things through before asking the question.
[ It's a lie, sure, but the truth wouldn't make anything better. ]
*****
[ Rose sends a message to Angeal: ]
Hey Angeal, please check on Mithrun. I had questions about demons and didn't really think through how they might impact him. I think he's probably checked out right now, but I told him I'd be contacting you. Sorry about that.