Felix clicks his tongue, quickly irritated again. "What kind of bullshit is coming from your mouth now?"

The moment he says those words, though, he sees the desperation and pain in Dimitri's eyes. His stomach clenches.

"I didn't mean..." he stops, his gaze averted and his lips pressed into a thin line.

He didn't mean that Dimitri was being disingenuous. He meant that Dimitri shouldn't apologize for something like existing. Felix never hated him for that. His existence isn't what hurts Felix every day.

But, he can't say that.

He hates this. He would give anything to be anywhere else right then.