[He holds his breath at the interruption, digging fingernails into Dimitri's shoulders and tensing his back. He wants to snap at him to get on with it, but this gentle concern Dimitri is showing him is tearing at his heart.]

...No. I left before your madness got everyone around you killed. Or that I killed-- I ... I didn't turn out any better. I'm just as much a beast.

[He tips forward, leaning heavily on Dimitri with his head on his shoulder.]

...You should stop acting so concerned. I'm not made for anything but battle.