[Felix's grip is strong but it's not something he hasn't felt before. He loves that felix won't let go of him, he feels completely wanted, needed. It's a feeling Dimitri craves. He slowly starts to spread him, the use of the water helping to keep his finger wet enough to be lubricated.]

I'll be here however long you need me Felix. I care for you deeply.

[ So badly he wants to tell him his feelings, how deeply he loves him but this isn't his Felix. It wouldn't be fair to either of them. Still with their heads pressed together and the gentle kiss from Felix, he can't help but feel like this is his</> Felix.]