Shut up! Don't make up excuses for me! It wasn't about survival, I was following my own path--
[He growls and rakes his fingers against Dimitri as he's carried, like a cat that's difficult to hold. Then he's dipped into deeper water and he gasps and clutches at him, and he feels Dimitri's lips firm against his own. His arms wrap tighter around him, and he even hooks a leg around him as well, as he kisses him back.]
[There's so much affection in Dimitri's kiss, and he can feel it. He could hear it in his words, too. Wether he liked it or not, they always felt made for each other, their whole lives. Something sticks in his throat. Tears start coming down his cheeks again unbidden, and he breaks the kiss with a gasp, shoving his face against Dimitri's neck.]
...I... I loved you this whole time... but I couldn't leave my path... I just... didn't think I would survive this long... I wasn't supposed to.
[A whole shudder convulses his body. He keeps grabbing at Dimitri with a bruising grip, pulling handfuls of his wet clothes.]
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[He growls and rakes his fingers against Dimitri as he's carried, like a cat that's difficult to hold. Then he's dipped into deeper water and he gasps and clutches at him, and he feels Dimitri's lips firm against his own. His arms wrap tighter around him, and he even hooks a leg around him as well, as he kisses him back.]
[There's so much affection in Dimitri's kiss, and he can feel it. He could hear it in his words, too. Wether he liked it or not, they always felt made for each other, their whole lives. Something sticks in his throat. Tears start coming down his cheeks again unbidden, and he breaks the kiss with a gasp, shoving his face against Dimitri's neck.]
...I... I loved you this whole time... but I couldn't leave my path... I just... didn't think I would survive this long... I wasn't supposed to.
[A whole shudder convulses his body. He keeps grabbing at Dimitri with a bruising grip, pulling handfuls of his wet clothes.]
I'm sorry... Dimitri...