[The more Ushijima talks, the angrier Tooru gets. The more hurt he feels about not getting to defeat Ushijima himself, or rather, have memory of it rather than debating on taking his word for it. He's still convinced it's some cruel joke, even though he'd already decided to stay and even had citizenship. As well as catching the right people's eyes with his playing.]
I just said, some kind of sick joke to fuck with me. Get my hopes up. KNOWING that I've never been able to beat you or your team. Fuck you. "I'm only an enemy inside your head." Really? Easy to say when you've always come out on top.
[Without even realizing it, there's a lot more hurt in his voice. Most of it to losing to Ushijima, but more about just losing every chance in middle and high school to really shine. And yet, he'd also made peace with that to push himself further and succeed. He's just pissed and refuses to believe Ushijima of all people. Kageyama he'd be more willing to believe, there was a healthier rivalry between the two now, and he'd definitely believe Hinata.
Tooru, also, had gotten even more in Ushijima's space, that spice cake starting to really have an effect on him now as his gaze no longer is on Ushijima's eyes but his lips and then his neck. Hard to ignore the effects now that he's so close and practically pressed against the other man, and he hates that he wants to be touched. Yet, he does, and even has had a dream or two about being pinned down by Ushijima, though never has admitted it. Not even to Iwaizumi, he doesn't want to deal with that teasing, not yet.]
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I just said, some kind of sick joke to fuck with me. Get my hopes up. KNOWING that I've never been able to beat you or your team. Fuck you. "I'm only an enemy inside your head." Really? Easy to say when you've always come out on top.
[Without even realizing it, there's a lot more hurt in his voice. Most of it to losing to Ushijima, but more about just losing every chance in middle and high school to really shine. And yet, he'd also made peace with that to push himself further and succeed. He's just pissed and refuses to believe Ushijima of all people. Kageyama he'd be more willing to believe, there was a healthier rivalry between the two now, and he'd definitely believe Hinata.
Tooru, also, had gotten even more in Ushijima's space, that spice cake starting to really have an effect on him now as his gaze no longer is on Ushijima's eyes but his lips and then his neck. Hard to ignore the effects now that he's so close and practically pressed against the other man, and he hates that he wants to be touched. Yet, he does, and even has had a dream or two about being pinned down by Ushijima, though never has admitted it. Not even to Iwaizumi, he doesn't want to deal with that teasing, not yet.]