[ his eyes become glassy when he hears Xander's account on how the fight with Corrin went down. he very nearly loses his composure - both over the horrors that his lord had to live through being illustrated to him with words, and the aching pain that Xander was carrying in his chest over his inability to protect Peri and himself.
oh, he ached. how he ached.
his voice is soft, almost as a whisper, and he casts his gaze down. ]
I had a suspicion that is how it went down, and having it described makes my heart ache like none other. I am so very sorry you spent your final moments in that way ... really, Milord, I ... [ he swallows hard so not to cry. blast. why now of all times? right when he had all sorts of conflicting thoughts bouncing around in his head over the crude nature of this place, he now felt overwhelmed with all sorts of emotions. it takes all of his strength to not choke and with one sharp deep breath, he manages to abstain from crying. barely just so.
he lets out a shuddering sigh. ]
You are carrying so much hurt inside. I can see it in your face. But we're here now. Among flowers, under blue skies. [ ... with weird sex demands but-- ] It's all over. We made it through to somewhere. It isn't a perfect somewhere, but I'll be damned if I don't see through to you having a comfortable, peaceful time here with the amenities that you deserve after all the pain you've gone through.
[ Xander raises a good point. why did Laslow want to continue serving him? he'd have to search deep into his heart to figure that answer out but for now, the very least he could do was try to put it into words. the way his heart danced in his chest when the blonde noble was in his vicinity, and how he had passed these feelings off for years as devotion. he'd been far too busy to contemplate otherwise. but now, under a new sky among the blossoms, he could think about it.
but kind of didn't want to. ]
I enjoy your company, Milord. Once my service had ended as your retainer, I had planned to go to a far away land - my home. Before long, Nohr began to feel like my home. I was beginning to doubt myself and my intentions once over. But regardless of what my intentions were, I cannot go home now. I am here now, as are you. And although I am filled with regret that I lack the ability to see Mother and Father again, I feel warm and fulfilled in your company.
[ he gazes up at Xander after having had his head cast down for so long. ]
So, please, Milord. I would like to stay by your side while I am here. There are many things unknown about this afterlife - in the event of threat or conflict, I want to ensure I am there protecting you.
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oh, he ached. how he ached.
his voice is soft, almost as a whisper, and he casts his gaze down. ]
I had a suspicion that is how it went down, and having it described makes my heart ache like none other. I am so very sorry you spent your final moments in that way ... really, Milord, I ... [ he swallows hard so not to cry. blast. why now of all times? right when he had all sorts of conflicting thoughts bouncing around in his head over the crude nature of this place, he now felt overwhelmed with all sorts of emotions. it takes all of his strength to not choke and with one sharp deep breath, he manages to abstain from crying. barely just so.
he lets out a shuddering sigh. ]
You are carrying so much hurt inside. I can see it in your face. But we're here now. Among flowers, under blue skies. [ ... with weird sex demands but-- ] It's all over. We made it through to somewhere. It isn't a perfect somewhere, but I'll be damned if I don't see through to you having a comfortable, peaceful time here with the amenities that you deserve after all the pain you've gone through.
[ Xander raises a good point. why did Laslow want to continue serving him? he'd have to search deep into his heart to figure that answer out but for now, the very least he could do was try to put it into words. the way his heart danced in his chest when the blonde noble was in his vicinity, and how he had passed these feelings off for years as devotion. he'd been far too busy to contemplate otherwise. but now, under a new sky among the blossoms, he could think about it.
but kind of didn't want to. ]
I enjoy your company, Milord. Once my service had ended as your retainer, I had planned to go to a far away land - my home. Before long, Nohr began to feel like my home. I was beginning to doubt myself and my intentions once over. But regardless of what my intentions were, I cannot go home now. I am here now, as are you. And although I am filled with regret that I lack the ability to see Mother and Father again, I feel warm and fulfilled in your company.
[ he gazes up at Xander after having had his head cast down for so long. ]
So, please, Milord. I would like to stay by your side while I am here. There are many things unknown about this afterlife - in the event of threat or conflict, I want to ensure I am there protecting you.